Where is my soul ?

  During the previous lecture of creative thinking and idea generation, Mr. Lim asked us that did we question ourselves who we are before. This question had given me a thought of questioning myself now. This question is " Do I use my brain to question or to think everyday?". This might sounds stupid to others if I just go to someone and question him or her, "do you know who are you?" or "do you use your brain to think everyday?". If someone asked me before I attended the lecture class, I guess I will just laugh and walk off to ignore such meaningless question. But now, I feel it is actually legit.

  When I sit down quietly and think bout it, I don't really use my brain to think everyday. Everyday, I wake up and do the same thing all the times, I don't really have to use my brain to think because it is a habit. So, I feel that I'm just a robot who has a system set in my brain to run my daily lives. On weekdays, my daily routine is fixed. From the moment I wake up, every week and every weekday is the same. Study, using computers, driving, working, eating and sleeping. So, if I have to see myself as a subject other than human, I think I am a robot which I had mentioned earlier. Then, what's my brain is doing all the time?

  I am a flesh who does not often use my brain, I don't make choices everyday but everything is my habit even my meal selection is almost fixed. During primary school, I did what my parents wanted me to do which was to get a good results in UPSR. During secondary school, I was doing the same stuff too. Until today, I still do not know am I doing the things that the people surrounding me wanted me to do it, or my brain asked me to do so. I feel that sometimes people perception and comment affects my decision, and basically I ignored what my subconscious mind wants me to do. So, if let's say I always followed my habit, people's comments and perceptions to decide something, am I an individual who has a soul ? If I am able to ignore those people comments and perceptions at that time, am I still a flesh who does not has soul. I hope yes.